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Fashion design student. I cosplay, I draw, I play pretend...and I make fantastic puns.

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“I went to a bookstore and asked the saleswoman, 'Where’s the self-help section?' She said if she told me, it would defeat the purpose.” ―Steven Wright
In that awkward space between Christmas and New Year's, I took a step back to think about the upcoming new year and what I was going to do about it. Every year since I was maybe ten or eleven, I've made new year's resolutions like the adults around me in my life did. But it wasn't until I graduated high school that I started to take the idea of resolutions more seriously. As a kid, I either repeated what my parents said or what my friends said. As a teenager, it was all about keeping up with the image that both kept me accepted among my friends <slash>haha yay insecurities!</slash> and kept me out of the firing range of my peers and their lack of sensitivity thereof. In short, it wasn't until I was slowly being forced into "adulthood" that I..."grasped"?...the meaning of resolutions.

And this year, with the biggest change in my life to ever happen just around the corner, it hit me hard.

My resolutions are for me.

Every single end of the year I take a look back at my resolutions and realize I did nothing. And every single year I beat myself up in disappointment and try again, only bigger and better, whoo! This year, I've cleaned my slate of past failures and I'm starting from scratch. So here they are: my resolutions for 2014.

  • Have self-confidence. My biggest fault as a person is my lack of self-confidence. In hindsight, I think it's been more detrimental to me than I initially realized. Lacking confidence has, no surprise, made me second-guess a lot of the actions I take. My lack of self-confidence is so terrible that I am intimidated by anyone with a title or position of greater power/purpose than my own, like my college professors. At times I end up just "following the crowd" instead of voicing my own opinion, be it pro or against what my friends or family or peers are doing. My self-consciousness with what every single individual may or may not think of me gives me "bad selfie syndrome" (you take a dozen pictures of yourself and only one of them looks "meh, that's alright"). I'm too damn concerned with what others, even strangers, think of me to the point where I won't do what I want to or hold off on what I should do. I'm even shy about my physical appearance, when I fully realize I have no reason to be, much less motive when I know others who suffer worse.

    This year I promise to myself that I will me daring. I will trust my inner voice. I will speak up if I am certain, or fearful, or needed. I will not allow paranoia to hold me back. I will consciously remind myself that confidence is the greatest beauty I can have, and that it is OK if I'm not very good at it to start.

    Things I will do to improve this:

    1. Remember that any person I speak to is just like me: a person. More often than not, they are there to help me.
    2. Make sure my voice is heard when/where it counts.
    3. Do not nit-pick myself or think negatively of everything I do. If something gets bad, turn it into constructive criticism rather than harmful negativity.
    4. Seize the moment. Be daring and make bold choices. Taking chances is something that especially in today's day and age can lead to living a happier lifestyle and open doors and opportunities that could be unimaginable before. Remember to not be afraid to be brave, even if being brave means picking up an important phone call or just getting out of the house on a day gone sour.
    5. Sign up and go to the gym for at least an hour a day, five days a week. <slash>already started this one so fuck yeah! kudos to me!</slash>

  • Learn to say "No". I am a people-pleaser. Guilty. And this particular problem of mine has caused me much stress and grief. The only way for me to fix this is to learn to say no.

    Things I will do to improve this:

    1. Remember that a friend/relative/stranger will not be mad or disappointed in me if I turn down whatever it is they ask and/or offer.

  • Stay Organized! For me this ranges from as literal as keeping my room clean to as complex as finding the balance between social life, school, and work. Hell, even spending money. I'm not...too bad at it, but there is certainly room for improvement!

    Things I will do to improve this:

    1. Buy a planner that allows me to keep a detailed schedule of my week. Organize my weekly events, and remember to leave personal time for myself as well as keeping all my to-do's in check.
    2. Buy a checking/spending's booklet and keep track of absolutely everything I spend on. (Yes, even those french fries.) While I'm not a crazy spender, this will make me more conscious of how wisely I may or may not be spending my hard-earned money.
    3. At home, try not to get caught up multi-taking. I.E.: don't mix chores together so that you either create a bigger mess or neglect to finish one or the other, such as laundry. And if possible, put messy things away as you're using them, so that there's not as huge a mess as there could be. <slash>(To future self, I have one word for you: cosplay makeup. Yeah, now you know exactly what I mean.)</slash>

  • Create four new costumes. Not much of a self-improvement goal in terms of myself as a person, but more a goal for myself as a seamstress, a cosplayer, and most importantly to present myself in my career. Cosplaying is a hobby I'm transposing into a career as a costume designer, so the more costumes I can complete and the more challenges I can overcome making them, the better! Ideally, I'd also like to be able to attend one new convention this year, but baby steps! (Also remember to get great pictures for portfolio!)

  • Keep up with artwork. Pretty straight-forward for me. Draw at least one piece of fan-art a month and draw one collection of 10-15 garments a month.

I hope I'll be able to look back at this at the end of the year and be able to say I accomplished a few of my goals on this list.

To whomever reads this journal,
don't be afraid to chase after your resolutions or whatever
goals you set for yourself! Change is hard, and that's why a lot of
people run from it. The struggle to overcome it and the fight
to get to where you want to be is what makes you a
stronger person in the end.

Happy New Year, everyone!

~swaggy...out? swagger out?
(^still working on that)

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SparrowsSongCosplay Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2015  Hobbyist Artist
Giiiirl you going to any cons coming up?? 
Dawnburn123 Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2014  Hobbyist
my favorite Disney female id jasmine, but I also love belle Megara, and pocahontus. but out of them all i mostly have snow whites personality, I plan on doing jill valentine for resident evil and a steampunk snow white. next year
sidekickswagger Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2014
Jasmine is up there on my list of top five Disney princesses/heroines as well. Haha she's a princess I want to cosplay sometime in the future as well! Ooh, I hope I see you at AB next year! a steampunk Snow White sounds bad ass!

Thank you so much for the kindness and for the follow! It means a whole lot! :hug:
Dawnburn123 Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2014  Hobbyist
thanks ya im getting a sewing machine soon so I can start
SparrowsSongCosplay Featured By Owner Mar 31, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Is this... Robin? C:
sidekickswagger Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2014
Yes! So glad I got to meet you on Saturday, your Wonder Woman is beautiful!
SparrowsSongCosplay Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Yes! So glad I found you on dA. :heart: What other cons are you going to? And thanks so much, your Robin was insane!!
sidekickswagger Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2014
Aww, thank you! ^///^ I know I'm attending Boston ComicCon for sure way out in August, but I'm still unsure if I'll be going anywhere else before that.

Oh! I hope you don't mind, but I featured your Wonder Woman in my vlog video from this year's AB (it was just too awesome not too haha!) it's at

I hope I get to see you at another con in the future! And keep up with the great cosplay!
Fantalusy Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Thank you for adding my work into your collection :)
sidekickswagger Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2014
I was more than happy to add it!
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